---SilencetoBE---

2007-11-26T00:03:00.000-08:00

brother lied..
mother lied..
who is gonna lie next?..
IT's just not right... no right...
EXPRESS.. now ...
have i really got the choice to give up something for it..?
THAT SOMETHING .. i've wanted and achieved but now .. i gotta let it go?..
JUST BECAUSE ..
(something)...

what have i done to have all these?..
trying to help out in everything i can.. but i duno ..
i duno ...
i duno ....
i really duno .....
TIRING....

THAT steamboat gathering...
that steamboat place...
it's presence of love in families... with relatives...
IT'S GONE.. JUST MISSING..
how can i have the appetite to eat..
i feel ... more like crying...
everyone's all gone...
to australia .. one by one...
flying away..migrating there..
when can they come back?...
when ... can i see them again?...
how long must i wait?...
i really miss them... really ...
don't wish to let go of them..
the memories i have in my heart.. since i was young.
they were just there...
playing .. laughing.. talking loudly..SO FUN.. so .. fun.. but now..
left with 3 families.. just 3 ??...
3 .....
i like this no. ..
but it sounds so pathetic tinking of it now...
it's seems... so small..
so small...

NOT RIGHT .. NO ...
nononoo!!!!
i miss them...
i miss you..
i wish they were all back...
but time just passes so quickly...
so .. quickly..

2007-11-19T19:12:00.000-08:00

HEY im back ! haha
sry that i din update my blog guys .
lazy and busyxD and yes
i've been sleeping like a pig all day long .
holidays have nth much to do sometimes indeed.
hmmm .. well ..
i got in to express fortunately .. but..
i wish i can handle the stress and the subjects well .. or very well ..
memorising can drive me nuts ! TT
elective history
Pure geog
Social studies
A maths
E maths
Chinese
English
lastly...
Combined science(Phy,chem)?O.O
i tink that's all? i duno bout the dnt all those sia-.- gotta go find out..
but .. the class im gonna go in is ..
3dil O.O..
at least im in the same class as freesia (laoma) LOLxD
hmmm .. feel very bad at times.. cos .. i forgot that i promised someone that i can get work from my mum for him but i din remember .. and now there's no more slots ..
so it's .. weijian.. christopher.. and new pple .. like ler ler?(china) ,stanley.. and shuai.. and one more.. weird names .. as in .. the shuai especially hahaha . though i din see shuai b4.. i remember there's one more xD
but i dun work for now .. just lazy ^^ .. though there's a reason haha .
yes.. the musical audition for round two results are not out yet i tink? it seems that no one got any notice yet ..
so im too *WAITING N WAITING* HAHA
but i wish next year .. i can handle everything smoothly ..
*PRAY PRAY PRAY* ><
also very sad that i din join the gurls and some guys for badminton nowadays.. there's a reason hahaha.
and last of all ...
8 more days~!( to overseas trip-.- which i most likely will be slacking in the hotel all day hahaha)
and...
13 more days~! ( guess it! hahaha)
hais .. miss my relatives who are in australia .. they migrated there quite long ago though..
they wont be able to celebrate with me so many things.. but at least we kept in contact through msn and emails .. sometimes even phone calls :D . but they seldom come back .. sadly ..
haha .. nvm .. at least still got friends.. other relatives.. and .. family ^^ ..
that's all for now peeps !

im still ...
still ...
am i holding on?...
i know i cant ... who can change it...
guess no one..

SIGNING OFF~
~d0r0~ ^^

Don't get it..

2007-10-02T04:04:00.001-07:00

-another thing-
yes.. she is true .. that because of her looks .. she use another way to get pple close to her .. but somewhat.. she went quite overboard.. don't u think so ?..

-another thing-
exams is just tomorrow .. everyone .. all the best and good luck ! ..
after the exams .. it's time to Relax and play all u wan to . haha though im gonna fly off for quite a while lol . haha.

-another thing-
i wish i can talk to u(someone) .. one on one again .. to clarify things .. and i wish .. u will not give me the normal attitude that u always do .. the negative one .. which hurts .. i just wish .. everything will go normal again .. and back to where we belong ..

-another thing-
pls .. do not make promises when u can't fufill them ..
someone broke a promise already .. reminders .. and reminders .. but u din take note .. and left it behind .. now .. it's gonna past .. 12 midnight .. it's the end of the promise .. this time .. it is totally broken ..

-another thing-
thx anne .. and freesia(laoma) for being by my side .. especially freesia .. thx for helping me .. as well as anne -.-.LOL .. and others .. who encouraged me ..
but .. things gotta go on as usual .. it's normal to have ups and downs in life right? haha .
and ,, MAN .. i forgot to put my precious INTO THE pigeon hole -.-..IM DEAD -.- lol ..

-another thing-
if i gotta let u guys go .. and go on ..
i need to ..
but ... i want to ..
but i cant .. that is the prob ..
somehow i felt i could ..
but the truth is i couldn't ..
if only i was as important to u as u are to me ..
wont it be wonderful ..
just doubt it can come true ..
im never convinced ..
well .. just gotta wish upon a shooting star then ..
i may feel left out ...
or .. alone...
but when i look deep down ...
i still know ... someone never forsaken me ..
haha .. again .. it's my almighty father ..
last of all . thanks vanessa for the dvd haha . it was nice though it lags a little .

The little promises ..
the small lies ..
became ..
big promises ..
and ..
big lies ..
oh .. how i miss those memories ..
that i can't simply let go ..

yes im tired .. but im glad..
to once have friends ..
that were once by my side ..
let me repeat .. that
im glad ..
thankyou ..

THings gotta change ..
gotta adapt ..
before it's too late ..
but issit true? ..
i guess it is ..

gotta go eat dinner .. and look through the chinese textbook already then -.-.
nites ..

2007-10-01T03:26:00.000-07:00

As usual . went to school . after school went to art room ta clarify things . saw nigel and samuel . then went in with erin and freesia to ask mrs lum about art stuffs .. and then went to suyu house ... pathetically ...
nth much to say bout it ....
just wanna say(to someone) : am i really ur fren or ur good fren or just a stranger?our best friend bond i've broken..
that presence .. if i did that to u .. i guess u wont feel good as well .. frens are by ur side .. so u nid not worry that u will not have frens .. if im not ur fren . u might be sad for awhile but .. in the end .. u will definitely cheerup . im glad u have been my fren .. but the hurting has been deep .. the arrangements of meetings that u guys arranged with a last min notice wasn't such a good idea though.. but at least i learned some chinese there.. =-=-end-=-=
thanks man daniel and brendan .. passing around messages.. at first wanna go there .. then come here .. im sorry but .. this is the first time that brendan had kinda really offended me .. cmon .. i noe u forgot that u asked my bro to call u .. but .. at least u handled the matter for awhile .. will it affect u ? .. by that time, i've yet to study and u already studied a little .. just by picking up the phone and talking to my brother to ask him to call u back later .. issit so difficult?.. i din noe why too .. somewhat u din seem to care .. u just kept asking me to do the job . i've done a bad job infact b'cos i din noe what was going through u and my bro's mind. im really sorry to say this ..
i was very troubled then ..
i din noe what u wanted .. at first u said u were shy/paiseh .. but when u went there...
you were alright right? ..
things come least expected.. think u heard this before .. and u did not nid my brother then ..
then u just nidda tell me to ask my brother not to come .. with a call or a sms .. in the end .. i helped u ..
i find the whole situation weird ..=-=-end-=-=
This whole meeting purpose .. was to actually be me..minqi.. and munyee .. to study chinese.. it was actually me and minqi .. and in the end .. thinking of gathering everyone... and i've yet to learn anything like before ..
were suppose to go minqi house but in the end ..
clashes .. here and there ...
total disappointment again ..
learning the piano was that tough there ..
i wonder.. who will understand my feeling?..
staring at the keys brendan play.. learning .. and learning with my own strength ..
i seem to be invisible ..
what have i learned for chinese...
words to read .. yes, it's good enough to me.. i guess ..
but soon i was also attracted to the computer screen about the shows..
is this counted as the studying meeting? ..
didn't thought that they would leave so fast..
and minqi .. though went home with me .. but .. the conversation we had .. wasn't satisfactory..
can someone tell me ... what's the word .. cheerup for? ..
they mostly say the same thing when i talked to them .. "Ahya. it's always like that one larr" or " oh " ..
and yet was having so much fun with each other ..
i seem to be a minor friend ..
i dun seem important anymore ..
in both ..
Guess im going through the "forsaken feeling" that happened to jesus on the cross ..
wish it's a normal thing ..
As it's tiring ..
that cycle..

2007-09-28T08:28:00.000-07:00

hello ~ haha . lol

today was okay i guess .. just feel .. so much changes as usual ..

feel that im not as close as i thought i would to 2 sin .. and .. as well as 2 joy .. cliques .. i guess ..

felt left out sometimes.. trying to fit myself back in .. but i somewhat cant .. so . ya .. haha .

okay .. it's true .. dogs have a life like us too .. just a little cuddle will get satisfactory filled hur haha . talking to jiahao now .. talking bout me liking animals LOL .. speaking of it .. it reminds me .. when i was very young .. and i was at .. my grandpa's funeral i guess? .. i was trying to find my way back to my auntie's house as i was at the nearby playground.. the other's as in .. cousins ? were still playing .. i was pretty frightened .. and it was getting late .. the sky started turning dark .. i was scared .. suddenly .. a BIG golden retriever came along .. he went beside me .. as if .. he knew that i was lost .. i started patting him on the head .. he seemed quite old to me .. having shaggy gums haha like old dogs do .. suddenly he seem to tell me to follow him .. i just ran after it .. while he led the way .. and suddenly .. i was under my auntie's blk .. i was shocked by what happened.. i then turned behind .. suddenly it was already across the road .. he seems to be happy that im safe .. it was as if .. it was an angel .. trying to guide a lost girl .. and suddenly he ran off .. back home i guess ? .. i then started going to my auntie's house .. but if im not wrong .. my other auntie came along and saw me .. then the dog went off .. then when i reached the house ... i felt so secure .. but .. i did not ever expect this happening to be in my mind till now .. somehow when i thought again .. i felt a little amazed and scared bout it .. and keep thinking that i was dreaming instead of it happening in real life .. but .. it was really true .. i thanked that dog .. so much ..i guess the past has really placed a great impression on me .

today had tuition . 2morrow having tuition again haha .

wish that i can concentrate in everyclass bahh .

sorry ruijun that i am not able to go to ur church this week . im so sorry .

i will make time to go one day .. after exams .. and i must >< .

father lord i pray for ur wisdom and guidiance during this period of time dear lord.amen !

a short prayer . =x .

lol haha .

all i noe is that . i may think that i am alone but i know i will never be .

as i have god .

nites then .

getting late .

stories might carry on in the next post about the past . haha

lol .

takecares ~

byebye~

2007-09-22T03:15:00.000-07:00

HELLO!
im back ><.
how's my new blogskin>
was kinda bored with mine so i decided to change it -.-..
today was pretty bad -.-.
parents went overseas again as usual on thursday morning. around 5.45? going to 6am ? they left the house. was sad and worried for them as usual . and was sick for the past five days(before thursday) as in that unwell feeling .. then felt more sick on thursday instead lol -.-.weirdo hur haha . but i know that exams are very near .. but if u are sick u got to be right? haha =x.
then i slept at my parents room yesterday because i watched magicians of love though i watched it before .
then fell alsleep haha .
then this morning woke up . was alright at first.. but
after i ate my breakfast which is egg with bread.
i had a little stomachache -.-.. it was always like that .
then later . when i was about to eat my lunch. (porridge) =x.
i ate a little . drank a little water .. then my stomach aches MORE ! it was like a particular pain that i experienced before last time .. usually at night .. and i will always rush to my parents room for help .. but now.. parents not here.. so was suppose to have tuition but in the end i told my bro i cant go thus he went himself =x . sorry uncle henry.
the pain last bout 1hr ..-.-..
which hits directly at 1230 and my bro went off .
in the end i ate medicine and slept .
i woke up at .. around 1.39pm?1.40pm? felt much better though .
then switched on my computer . suppose to do my work but no mood-.- LOL.
okay . i'll end here .
~d0r0~
=x
stupid kelvin :D LOL =x . jk
parents coming back today . (: !

2007-09-12T06:07:00.000-07:00

back . after going express.. so many changes.... my font colour is kind of dull ... it's been really hard and tiring these days on how life have been going on for me ... i duno .. i feel that ... in express.... it's always me ... myself ... and i .. but in NA .. most of the time, we do hw together..we study together ...now ... feeling much lonely ... seem to be losing people around me ... it seem to be worse than before ... feeling much more pressurize .. im worried....if i get friends now again ... and get close to them ... after a while ... i'll lose them again ...i wonder wad i did wrong.. to gain all these friendship ..comforts does not seem to be working... i just want a warm .. long friendship.. a trustworthy one .. but i know people have their own limits.. if i did something wrong.. i dun mind u telling me..but if u were to tell me what i did wrong b4 u even know how i feel right now.. what's the point.. i seem to be hurted even more..then i might as well just treat it as normal friends and not bringing it to a closer friendship ..people also have their probs.. and their time..if u cant help me .. just tell me .. i can still ask around.. (this is kinda for somebody).. trying to adapt to my surrounding .. with people who are so smart around me .. gives me a little motivation to work harder .. but it's difficult though .. in the class.. i .. feel so .. i feel as if im the dumbest ..honestly .. but i gotta hang on .. that's all i noe .. feeling stress all the time..having no choice .. putting a strong front .. i just have no choice ..dorothy ... help urself .. help urself ..help urself .. dun depend on others that much ... issit true ?! ... im just simply tired..im always tired.. i dun wan to have a black face .. and let others see it .. it will make them have one too .. as they will worry for me .. i was told off once though .. now i realise .. i tried to stop .. i just wish it wont come back so often..
okay then .. i shall do my work now ..
i shall remember .. i still have god though ..
i still have...
god ..
thankyou ruijun ..
~d0r0~

2007-08-29T07:17:00.000-07:00

such a loss in our family .. a tragedy death.. the remembrance of encouragement just passed my mind..now .. it's gone..
pls .. take care gabriel .. rest in peace..
now... all i really worry .. is my homework..man .. im so dead..so dead...
TIRING LIFE MAN-.-..EXAMS AND TESTS FASTER GO ~~ HOMEWORKS FASTER PASS ~~ HOLIDAYS FASTER COME !!
LOL!..
-.-...
gotta hang on ---
~WHOOSH ~~
CAPTAIN BALL SUDDENLY ROCKS ~~..
LOL~
~d-0-r-0~
eyes pain TT...hais...-

2007-08-20T03:49:00.000-07:00

HEY HEY !..im back -.-..

eh .. today .. was kinda emo...as i was tinking of loads of things..tried to put a happy front but i did not succeed-.-...i just noe.. now got loads of work to complete..omg..

1.]english the worksheet(tomorrow i tink)

2.]english project(next tues)

3.]HomeEcons coursework(which i duno wad is it..TT)(this wedTT)

4.]History project

5.]HistoryTest(this week chap7-9 i tink)

6.]MathsTest(this friday)

7.]ScienceTest(this thursday)

8.]english comprehension test(tink next tues?)

9.]english oral

...9 WORK MAN ! TT-.-..and the chinese.. is the worst...the teacher is from china.. so .. i cant even understand those chim words she was talking just now in class..im so dead in chinese..no one can help me in it as well .. last time can .. now..no more...and today just had maths test..wish i did well..i dun wanna keep just passing .. nidda do well.. if not i cant hit my target..and i'll nvr be in where i wanna be.. and gonna go back ... to where my parents worry again.. and all sorts of weird things.. then now.. in the class..between two i tink can say cliques bahh?O.O..gurls one.. got something happen ... then... got one problem also ..cannot say .. then ... another problem .. also cannot say ...ahya ... just got probs coming in again... the worst...should be the hws bahh?..it's kinda pressurizing.. but gotta be strong.. back to topic.. then after class end..nidda wait till 3pm ... and oh ya . thx brenda for helping jacinta to put the papers into the pigeon hole haha . thx gurl ..and sorry din manage to pei u today =x .. eh .. okay .. then .. 3pm was the briefing of the athenium day ?O.O..then.. went home with nisha..divya and...samantha (: .. haha .. samantha .. walk so fast sia so funny hahaha .. samantha is nisha's fastest walking person she saw ! LOL xD ! SO FUNNY SIA =X ..

eh .. then..

thats all ><.. haha

~takecares~

2007-08-13T05:14:00.000-07:00

back . sorry . was working as in helping my mom at kovan these few days . so didn't get to blog though .. many things happen..but today .. is one of the ... ones that ... i couldn't bear to hold on bahh ..
had lessons..was pretty down at first as i felt tired..but after recess..guess felt much better so was pretty high bahh O.O? then...eh ... after school ... i keep remembering..bout going kovan melody..actually with suyu..charlyn they all.....go there .. visit charlyn grandma again..and brendan house is there too so yupp .. can visit too .. suppose to swim but in the end never..okay let me start with.. i called minqi first..but she said she was not going so asked me to call the rest..i called sirui..duno why ... i tink she press busy....then ... i called suyu .. she answered..said the same verse .. i hear ... sorry i forgot !...i was like....okay ..... where are u guys now then?..they were at mac..so i went along.. caught up with them..sorry that i was late -.-..and .. was hungry .. sirui was actually drinking the mr bean .. then i said can i drink a little .. suddenly she say - na,take the whole thing-then i was like .no nid larr little bit can lerr.. then she say - i very full lerr- so i said ..oh . okay . thxyou . haha . then .. eh..yea .. so we took off ..took mrt ...as we were waiting..i asked suyu and sirui..or should i say suyu .. were u shocked that i came? then sirui answered no?..with a weird face..and suyu did the same..then i was..oh..(in my mind was..why that weird face?was just asking with a happy outside..)..then we went on the mrt..i simply dun get used to it..im usually with sirui..always together..now..it's suyu and sirui..and i tried miggling to charlyn then.. we walked together..then i started talking to charlyn..same for the other two..as we(me and charlyn) were walking towards the grandma's block(in condo) at the swimming pool..then she told me that she asked suyu if i was coming anot and suyu said she duno..and said that i was different class from them liao.. when i heard all those..i was shocked .. totally .. you(suyu) were also the one who agreed on meeting up on monday with the rest..and yet u remembered me..and said u forgot..saying i was different class from you guys..and lying to me all these while ..one of the time was also when..i asked u if u putted the photos in ur comp already..you said u put in the other comp only.. but not in that comp .. but actually u already putted in that comp!..there were many lies..I BEARED ON..but u continued hurting me.. do u even care bout me?..all the caring was a lie too issit? .. it seems to me it is..why am i so quiet all those while when charlyn was not there.. was because .. i find it too difficult to talk..im too hidden inside..to even open my mouth..yes i noe u are forgetful .. but .. time by time.. i realise..all my things..u forgot .. for another person.. i thought u were a fren of everlasting frenship .. but i was wrong.. and i din expect myself to be pouring myself out to another person who i barely talk to..and i thank her..imagine if she was not there..guess i would not even noe the truth..is the truth really so ugly?..or is the lie really so fun?..im confused..i forgave u time by time.. but u dun seem to treasure it..maybe after u read this post..u might feel angry or .. sad or ? .. and spread it around .. but im not scared to face any consequences..as im tired.. if i said anything wrongly .. tell me then.. my frens in 2joy..seem to be all gone..except i realise .. the boys..from there..are still as joyous..and normally close..but the gurls..onli some.. and most have drifted away..why?..u promised to remember me..but .. why...
later went home..with suyu...sirui...brendan..and andrew .. went down the escalator mrt station..and i just kept quiet all the way.. i wished charlyn was there..at least someone to talk to..i already feel like cryin during the whole journey..then kor was going up the other side of the escalator..he saw me and shouted my name.. i looked up..with a gloomy face of course..mind full of thoughts..looking at him..thinking..why do he always appear at my lowest time?..most of the time.. and i just replied hi..and he looked at me with a weird expression.. like .. what's wrong.. and i was like .. doing that duno action and just looked down on the escalator steps again..suyu saw him..and waved..and they were doing signs top of my head..i din seem to bother..just keep thinking of memories..times...many things.. and expected..he smsed me.. but somehow.. i din tell him anything.. then... sitting in the bus... with suyu and sirui..they got off earlier as they discussed during the escalator .. that sirui going to suyu house download the audition..as her dad allowed her to play again..yes she was happy..and..when they got off..i felt..so lonely .. so .. remoted..like... so tired...last time.. we would all get off together..now..it's all so different..i wondered..have they ever felt for me .. after i left the class..?..
to me.. i suddenly felt..wad's the point of missing them..
im totally worn out...
just because of ...
pathetic frenships .. hanging at the bottom of my heart..
feeling worst betrayal ... worst swears...
just wonder..who will ever understand?..
nvr gonna feel any better ...
god of my forever..and forever i will sing..*tears flowed down*..
wad can i do?...

2007-08-06T03:20:00.000-07:00

sorry din blog for quite a number of days =x.
things happen then no time yupp.. just now nowadays very tired O.O..
let see..today..hmm .. at last i passed up both my chinese compo with brenda help :D! i thankyou :D ! ..well .. din really like english lesson today though ... pretty sad huh .. suddenly you are left behind..just reminds me of the old clique who did the same thing..man my heart hurts.. but .. i duno why .. im more worried for brenda then myself..weird..she somehow..ya .. i really dun feel like leaving pple alone..but somehow..there aint a choice..i guess.. then had science test..wish i wont fail and do pretty well i tink if not pass liao can bahh..i tried to work hard..but my results are like..man .. express..is kinda hard..im really worried..though i have god..but im sorry father lord..for not attending service for the past two weeks..pls forgive me..went to mac .. really thank god for a fren like brenda who is able to accompany me for my chinese compo and help me..we kinda enjoyed ourself..and she is kinda cute..she just keep toking while i looked at her sometimes blur..understood and .. doing my work..cute sia..then she just .. tok and tok hahahaha .. and share all her stories .. so funny sia xD! then .. saw suyu..emma and sirui... went down the escalator..emma and suyu was like waving.. and sirui was just looking as i guess she was too slow to react or? but .. i thought they would come up again to say something..waited and waited...sad hur? they din came..wonder where they went? .. they din ask me out again..MAN IM SO ...out of both cliques now..IM FOREVER IN BETWEEN !! ARRRH ! ..i dun wan this....pls...dun say ur troubles is bigger as all troubles is big..u cant measure them..trust me...though i have more frens now.. so wadd?..realise something...i dun have true .. best .. real frens...somehow .. they just leave my heart..to others...why issit frens are always my prob?...it might have been all a dream to tink that i had..till i woke up ... day by day..realising...where are u ? ..where are all of u ?..can u tell me..why did u forget me?...can u tell me wadd i did?..or should i say ... i should be asking myself...so wadd if i act happy in there..does it mean...im happy..well..im trying to face my greatest my fear infact... running as far as possible from it...and .. who cares?...i dun wanna be alone..i understood pple who were lonely...but somehow..they are used to it... but im not..i thought../always believe? that i was nvr lonely ..pple told me im not.. im not.. yes im not.. i have god..but .. frens?....u nidd frens once in a while...especially that feeling ..of being left out...they nvr came back... to me..this how i tink...when i put myself into their shoes(who have their frens and leave others behind)..i've got my frens now..and they forgets you..as they got their fren..they somehow...leave u behind..i wonder..have u pple...in that kinda shoe ever thought of the pple in this shoe?..like the loners?...i also wanna say sorry to one person...that i cant always company u ..u have ur own frens..but how bout that person that u say that always stick with me..she dun have much frens..that's why .. i accompany her kinda more..and wad's more she's my class partner..but i will also stick with u..once in a while..u are the second gurl i stick with most of the time in class if im not wrong..pls dun tink anything..u are still my fren..and i will always try my best to not leave u behind..issit okay?...all i noe is that im simply tired....maybe is because i din find u guys..or ... waddeva?...i just noe .. i tried my best to keep my promise..but u didn't .. time by time..u guys played happily .. and forgot bout me..why..?it was as if u understood me..
now im hardly anybody..
no one close beside me like b4..
thought everything i had could last..for a longer time..
but i was wrong..
how hurt...can i be?..
can anyone tell me?..no one understands..
if i were to have u by my side again..
at least..i had u .. but
now u had someone else..
but im happy for u..
i thankyou..
~d0r0~
those times..
those hurtful times..
those happy times..
that pathetic gurl..at the corner..with her mum infront..
crying for help..who is there ?..no one..

2007-08-01T05:15:00.000-07:00

first thing first..why do i just keep looking at the phone?O.O.. and okay..today was a fine day i guess?><..HE pair with jessamine:D..she's so cute larr..especially with ruijun and their POKEYS LOL!!! =x..
had a surprise maths test which i tink i din do so well TT... and...
art i nvr do finish hw xD .. and... english i also haven do finish XD!
then...eh ... had a real bad stomachache.. after HE(homeEcons)...maybe because i ate something wrong bahh =x? then..
eh...the muffins were pretty nice..but not as nice as the rest i guess XD..mine so big till it break hehes .. then .. I LOVE CHEESE..eh .. then XD ...actually got the rehearsal...then suddenly say dun have liao ?! as wadd many of them got lessons..i was like... wadda.... waste my effort...to print the lyrics..and practice in school and home the songs...Grrr...so angry sia =.=...and fed up ...ahya...just miss the microphone ! XD HAHAHA =x.. tink better not care bout it..got some OTHER THINGS more important-.-.. so in the end.. went golf...pretty emo .. thinking bout things.... class when got free time to think..i also tink bout things....pretty tired with hw....
now i still have....to revise maths(for tomorrow common test i tink?O.O)....do hist the paper...do english paper...and .. i tink art bahh? O.O..
THAT'S all i guess O.O?
oki...
byebye...=x

2007-07-31T06:01:00.000-07:00

back to blogging -.-..
hmm ... today went well i think ..
scored a goal at last for my floorball(PE)..was pretty letting out my anger during the game xD . duno why larr..feel so .. like..everytime cant hit the ball when teacher drops it..so angry then BOOM!at last it flew! XD LOL!..then .. did not go for ... chinese oral as mine is thurs xD i din noe..heng freesia and erin know -.-..PHEW* .. then .. eh .. ya .. science test on thurs..but i got oral ! DIE HOW?O.O...die die TT.. then .. eh .. went out with suyu they all .. so glad to be together .. but .. after the whole thing..things happen yupp .. then .. ya .. the motto for it is .. no turning back ..LOL -.-..im just sorry bahh .. maybe i overeacted =x..really sorry..duno wadd got into me..ya .. then something happen again..which is damn shocking-.-..and direct..okay .. waddeva..just many things happen :D YUPP :) .. AND TOMORROW GOT ... HE :D ! YAY !! THEN ... GOT...REHEARSAL AFTER SCHOOL! YAY ! but i duno if i nidda go golf anot ..=x DIE DIE AGAIN =X..now got bunch of hws .. more hws then NA sia..GOSH ! must be more in to hw liao..cannot always so naughty xD ! me arrh...so dead man x)!
okay .. i go liao..
well..probs...
coming in and out..
still i think...
unexpected things happen too O.O..
~``cya ``~

2007-07-27T06:32:00.001-07:00

tired .. everyday .. just tired...
thinking bout many things....
can someone tell me wadd i've done wrong?..
if only someone can tell me...
first..i went twinnie..because i was forced to ...
and im happy to help...till yesterday....
they left..and you accused me...
are u a teacher?...pls get the facts right...first...
though i go for twinnie...i din even skip any of ur classes(science).. and say that i did not schedule my time...say me outside class not enuff..still wanna say to the whole class..issit really so difficult to just say once?...and in the end..i did not miss ur class(science) yesterday at all..i only miss the assembly because one of the teacher of twinnie ask me to help her pass down msg..wad did i do wrong...?..and i also did finish my reflection..im really tired..why must troubles come in one whole big package...and after that...twinnie students going back...i read the letters some of the twinnie hosts wrote for them..i was touched..then when the teacher gave us a worksheet to write our reflection or something like that..there was one question..which asked..if u were to be given a chance to be involved again..would you like to ? and why? something like that..straight away..i was hurted..i was tinking..because of this..i was accused..was somehow scolded by my parents..i tried to bear my tears...in the end..i just cried ... for almost the whole thing ..when the HIHS host performing...i was at the pathetic corner hiding..and im like destroying the whole performance..though i was blocked..as i din have the mood..and in the end..huibing(charity) pei me go out..as we were right beside the door..im sorry..when the students(from china) going off..many of them cried..(hosts)..i wanted to...but somehow..i tink there's no more tears...and yet..i din get any gift..only got one small one..during the beginning of the twinnie program..treasure it alot...i felt somehow lonely in twinnie...somehow burdened...i duno ... but at least i tried my best ... but im sure gonna miss them(china students) somehow..
then now...my parents just went abroad(business)...everytime they go abroad..feel so insecure...keep thinking of alot of things in class these few days...many bad memories came back...
i have nth more the write.....i guess...
~pathetic~
~always a sad gurl bahh..~

2007-07-24T07:13:00.000-07:00

pretty tired today..had pe..and twinnie..din manage to do ting xei as twinnie took the time xD.. was kinda fun..? we went to NUS.onli the museum and the physics lab seems fun to me xD..the rest...wan die xD! walk like mad O.O..then the ... chemical lab..wa!! SO SMELLY =X! .. i sick somemore..cannot ta han XD !..then later went to west coast..then got the bigbig playground :D and the flying fox thingy...wa..then they bully me..put me in the middle..especially the zhongming O.O..then we go climb the BIGBIGtriangle thingy xD ! .. i almost stuck ! xD at first not so scared..then go up .. OMG..LOL!=x..i funny sia .. then ..later eat mac..some din play..(as in twinnies and hosts) .. eat mac until suddenly a very pain stomachache..then .. feel like vomitting O.O..duno wadd the hell happening to me -.-...then suddenly back very pain...ache here and there..wa...so tired -.-...hais...

and die..haven do chinese compo...I DUN EVEN HAVE A CLUE HOW TO DO IT...i nidd someone help...but..now dun have help lerr...hais....just die bahh -.-....i continue study hist bahh .........

cya then :)

takecares~

~d0r0~

getting more sick...

wanna die ?..

wadda hell am i tinking -.-...

im just simply tired~

2007-07-22T11:21:00.000-07:00

din go to school today..
HAVING a real bad sore throat.. and no one cared less :) . =x..!jk
now..... no one can bring hw back to my house.... not like last time....
miss those times.... arrh .. waddeva....i just noe...i got many things to do ..... twinnie arrh..studies arrh... then.....HI idol arrh....many many...cellgroup arrh..... so tired.....
maybe later i continue again....
byebye
~d0r0~
PATHETIC-

2007-07-22T01:31:00.000-07:00

back ! so bushed and tired..

okay..hmm lets start with ..friday:D

-FRIDAY-
had twinnie program..from morning...then din go to the botanical garden though..as i got the racial harmony fair..gotta tend the stores for the whole DAY!i was one of the bushed one..i ran to two joy stores up and down..shouting LELONGLELONG!all those stuff..then also went to 2sin to visit.. i can die...my dinner were peanuts and the indian tibits..-.-..the funny thing was..when i ran away from the stores .. and when i came back..business comes in..LOL!..when it was time to pack..i was pretty furious..there were two stores..one was with the main stocks..(second store) the first one was the first set up store..then .. when we finish..we suppose to pack the things to there..they took some back..then suddenly..when i went back there(first store)..from the second store.. i saw no one..and i turned back and see them eating the egg tarts ice cream!i was like'OI WHAT U GUYS DOING? COME AND PACK FIRST WADD' then they were like giving me a hand signal to wait..and they were happily eating..i was like..wadda....then i din bother to wait... suyu asked me if i wan ..she said she dun wan .. i was like..no thx ... in my heart..NO MOOD AT ALL...sacrifice my time to come here..if not im at twinnie already...yet packing up..u guys still..i also haven even eat..and im starving too alright...ahya..nvm...this thing also not forever..after everything met my mum and aunt..really thank them for coming... at least my effort din go to waste ? i went to mac to meet them..ate two filet-o-fish burger man ! omg..my aunt was shock LOL..it's pretty shocking to me too -.-...something happen on that day too anyway..still nid to thank them for helping out...cant be selfish over one incident-.-...

okay next..

-SATURDAY-

morning woke up at 745-.-...actually 730..was just too tired..reported to school at 845 i tink? for twinnie yupp..they going to some of the host houses..for my group..we went to jingyi house :D!..then zhong ming brought wii ? i tink .. yupp .. very fun to play =x..shi qi brought po piah to do .. then ..shirley and shiqi was the main pple who helped by teaching them how to do popiah..i the most naughty one=x..nvr bring anything for them=x..sadly..huibing din come sia..so sad larr..heard she not feeling well .. must takecares ya HUiBING !:)..had fun .. yupp.. we(group) really kinda worried for one of the gurls.. as she din get a chance to call her parents..then she's also kinda left out..once in a while..hais..but when went back to school..she got her own frens..so yupp .. ain't as worried as b4 :) .. then .. we got free time..i tink? then we played..like mad..as in..play our own games yupp..then me and jasmine was like mad ! LOL..then .. later..we had bbq..me,jingyi,abigail,fionella,shiqi,anne,huibing(2cha) were sitting together eating..then .. jingyi and me were laughing like mad at shiqi-abigail and fionella..anne and huibing din really join in as they were kinda enjoying their food i tink?LOL . hahaha..so funny sia..then ..we had campfire..was kinda fun..all of us perform..the china pple can dance very well man?..LOL..so fast sia..they dance..then when our group dance..i go connect my light sticks..(two) become like one long one..then half way of the performance..one of the light sticks DROP ! LOL..so funny larr..but really enjoy ourself..i was pretty high lorr..i also very extra LOL..things went pretty well though things happen as usual-.-...in the end...went home with mum,bro and maid..by taxi..LOl..

hmm..

oh ya..i wanna apologise to shiqi and shirley..

shiqi-- sorry for repeating bout the thing that happen..pls dun angry..im sorry..

shirley-- first thing first..takecare of ur injury ya?..sry for making u run...and..sorry for not companying u to sing?..which .. i really duno that there is another microphone..im really sorry too...

that is all...

sorry ...

say all u wan.....

im wrong bahh..

PATHETIC-

me again..

for sunday..which is today...

hmm nth much ...at night tink gonna eat chicken rice and somemore food..cooked by mum and maid bahh? yupp.. or mum teach my maid i tink..then maid cook..i duno larr..Lol..

okay then

cya~

2007-07-19T04:32:00.000-07:00

well...today...normall day?..got disappointed time by time...let me start..with..three main things that started today..first...i was lost in school..while i was trying the find two sin and two joy...i hate that feeling..it reminds me of my fear when i was young...i tried pulling myself together...why...even in school..i felt it..thank god(he helped me)..it all started..i was suppose to go to two joy the survey as my name is not in 2sin..after flag raising..i go the clique of 2joy and ask them to tell me...in the end..the result was..they forgot..at first..i was excited-.-.but it was ..for nth..i went to their class..(b4 that i on my phone) no one called me or tell me..they just went off..i cant find anybody..i asked awaluddin..he din noe..then it was raining cats and dog..i was getting more and more drench..i went two rounds..i could not find anyone..then later..i went back to two sin..lucky they were still there..then we went music rm..but on the way..i go and find freesia asked her somethings..then..later i went to find 2sin..but i din noe where! i was scared..i went to the music room..the shoes won't inside the shelf..you may find me stupid or waddeva..guess i din remember that 2sin was in lab1..but in the end i made it there..and found twojoy as well..as i was finding 2sin..i saw brendan and anselm but din ask them for exact..and i saw..andrew..he told me..and brought me..thx andrew(ahgong)..then i went in..i looked at the clique..i say...why u nvr call me?(in a shock and unpleased manner..i beared..)then they say they forgot..i was..like...okay nvm...(having to go through suffering..is this a test or wadd?(fromgod?) then..i quickly do my survey..minqi and suyu pei me..they tok and tok i somehow din concentrate LOL..but..nvm..then..we went off..they said 2sin in lab 1..i rushed there..and made it for music as well..i thought bad things was over..anyway..i went three or four rounds around the same lvl..just to find two classes...stupid..me...always so pathetic..then..later..recess..came back..the funny thing was..i like scaring pple..as the shumei clique knows..then got one of the twohope gurl came back with us..(kailee main frenLOL) then..i wanted to boo my normal style..but i just in the end..say..hi..wa.then she jumped..then i was shock(in a way of funny)haha..din expect her to jump LOL..then when went back..i was actually kinda playing around with the clique outside..then suddenly shumei wan me go in..she use her hands pull me..without noticing my hand being dragged by the door..then i was like'ARRH PAINPAIN(IN CHINESE)' then she was like ARRHH SORRY SORRY..she din noe .. haha it's okay..though it's pain -.-..then it's still swelling sia..omg..the skin peel off a little -.-..then..the..redness can say it's better..haiyo..see i so naughty=x..then brenda go say ..maybe it'll last for one week?(joking way) then i was like no way!(as we were leaving the science lab)..then she say..no larr..three days bahh then i say..that's better..Lol..then b4 that..in class..during hist lesson..jonas go play again..go throw the papers(mini ones)..i heard that side said my name..but i din bothered-.-..then the suay thing was..i injured my hand..he go and hit..but lucky nvr hit my hand..then mr Gerry Er go say him haha..wan to throw the marker at him hahaha..so funny..then i realise..everytime when he(jonas) hit me(for fun) horr..is always went i injured..last time..kena hit by a big book by siow hwee on my back..so pain lorr..and she use hand hit again somemore again..then she hit very hard one-.-..then i went back class..jonas(i tink or frens) go hit me with the magnet..so hard..then my whole back very pain..dun find it funny sia..that time..i find it very like cant be bothered..i keep saying pain pain...arrhh pain .. wa..SO SUAY SIA ME..SO PATHETIC-.-..then!then later..finish school..went to buy mac and KFC..then..saw suyu..and also saw(jia xuan and one of her fren(i know her too but i forgot her namexDpsps) then .. suyu say..eh!? din see u haha..ue nvr go help the minqi they all go help do banner mehh?..at first my mind inside..was shocked..thought they were suppose to call me too?..freesia also nvr go larr i realise..then i replied back(to suyu)..got mehh? they got do mehh? they din even call me or sms me..ahya..nvm larr...i tink i go home eat my lunch lerr..cya.. then in my heart was like..how many times can i be forgotten..then i just ..nvm ..like that..then ya..suyu sms me..with tingya phone..sorry suyu i din reply as i was having my afternoon nap..

i tink that's was all..

just disappointed..

to someone..-pls dun lie...pls...already being forgotten....at least the truth will help-

2007-07-18T04:04:00.000-07:00

continue from today . sad sia..my junior (one of my favs) wilburn . quitting golf lerr haha . always remember him derr :) . u must jiayou in ur studies and CROSSCOUNTRY OKAY ?! :D SENIOR WILL SUPPORT U WAN :D . hahaha
okay .. all the best
~sad~
~d0r0~
~wishing ue all the best~
~g0dbless~

2007-07-18T03:31:00.000-07:00

a b c d ... e f g ... LOL .. okay .. yupp .. wad can i say ?hmm .. today was quite a nice day ? haha . talked to more pple yupp .. and ya..oh ya . one funny thing happen .. so funny sia !omg XD. alright it all started..after recess..samuel was behind me and brenda when we were going up the stairs..at the ... very dark stairs there..the back one..then i also scare pple one wadd..so .. yupp .. brenda scare him first..then he shocked then even jump sia ! so funny . then he go say brenda ZI DAN(EGG ps duno how to spell the chineseXD)LARR NI(YOU)then he turn the other side..got two sides wadd..then i BOO HIM ! WITH ONE BIG STOMP AS usual LOL..then he was like .. SHOCK LIKE MAD LARR

HAHAHA THEN the clique and i laugh =x . when we went back .. we kena scolding sia..guilty *.* LOL..i also guilty .. sia .. the EL project i din help much .. as i duno how to do .. IM SORRY VERON ESPECIALLY T.T..sorry T.T..so guilty again o.o...then .. erm .. ya .. b4 LCE was HE wadd..then .. my group .. got relieved(anyhow spell=x ) teacher take over us..so we stay in class..so good =x.. then the catholic..and christian..started with me and ruijun first..then add in bryan then so on..but some not catholic or christian also join in larr..then we sing most worship songs..and one or two praises songs..so wonderful .. realise something pple?whenever u sing songs of god .. or for god..it's always as if u listened for the first time ..the greatness of it..it just doesnt makes u bored in a way..haha ..god is a great god XD ! ya then .. LCE .. i went to 2joy to discuss the RH day :) . pretty okay there haha .. still getting scolding as usual again o.o..nvr invite erin..we din manage to call her..but freesia got larr..then went golf...the juniors keep teasing me as usual..ESPECIALLY JONATHAN......!!GRRRR....nvm ! i short so wadd..u like so tall .. zack(junior) taller than u though ! but he also tease me larr..ahya .. tease lorr..also wont kill me .. HPMFH-.-..u feel larr..like every week pple tease ue...bout ur height especially .. and somemore ur juniors..haiyo...no choice larr..must bear .. and dun care bout wadd they say :) . short/small got advantage wadd right:D ? when got crowd..first one come out is the small and short ones

LOL..gap for them sia :) . big one..cannot hahahah=x..oops jjkjjkjk! =x

golf little boring today XD..but fun haha..mr.shingi not there sia.LOL..but ya..also pretty moody there..then slept in both bus journey to and fro XD . the bus today one is better than last last week and last week LOL..it's like so cosy and cold and nice ! LOL..then.. yupp..i wan thank veron and group for helping me in my english=xespecially veron and shumei haha=x..and .. i also wanna take..jason(another golf instrustor) for teaching me another method..and i really improve :D . thankyou :D haha

okay then

i go liao XD

~d0r0~

~

2007-07-17T06:11:00.000-07:00

normal day ? :) haha . eh . ya .. things happen during pe . wish jacinta( sorry if i spell wrong XD) is alright ya? ya . dun angry lerr alright:)(this is to someone x= ) and ... hmm .. yupp .. after school .. went out for awhile with chinghui to hougang mall .. met ruijun,jessamine and samantha yupp .. shumei and anthea tink went off first haha .. ya .. today .. lessons..very bored o.o...i keep ... eyes open .. then close..then open bigbig .. then sometimes absorb..sometimes dreaming LOL..
maybe i sleep too late lerr bahh o.o..die .. cannot watch show till so late lerr nowadays..last time is comp .. then kena scolding .. now is show..LOL..=x .. and last of all .. dun be angry because of me lerr.ya?..dun worry lerr..i now in between .. u dun wan me to feel like that too right ? haha .. eh .. ya..( this is to someone) .. relax ya ? ..
okay then
gtg :)
~niteys ~
~d0r0~
L0VESgod=x~

2007-07-15T06:52:00.000-07:00

hmm...im lazy to blog wadd happen .. all i know was that...okay .. i phrase it as..all i can best remember was....13july....i went out with the gurls(minqi..sirui..josephine..munyee)and two boys..(andrew and brendan) .. obviously .. u can see..i was the odd one out..i tried to fit in ..awhile..but was left out again once in a while...we went out the watch harry potter and the order of the pheonix..yupp .. kinda fun ? i tink yupp .. it was to have a early celebration of munyee's birthday yupp..i tink .. for me .. the movie..wasn't as nice as i expected o.o...i din noe y ..but..either it's the movie..or the company?..it reminded me of suyu and me..she never watched harry potter b4..in her whole life..till one day .. she decided to watch with me..then.. it was like so funny larr..we thought it would be so so so scary ..but in the end ..it was not haha..miss those times..anyway .. i just noe .. the funniest part of the movie(13july) was went..actually .. the movie was at a moody part..when suddenly..someone shouted..I LOVE YOU HARRY .. I WAS shock !! LOL..and i laugh like mad..as..if anyone who noes my well..they noe im those mad type o.o?..and lame type o.o?..i was like laughing so loudly..and some pple laughed too XD..but .. it was okay .. :) .. eh .. ya...things..were not solved..as usual i tink .. and .. just wanna wish munyee a happy belated birthday..sorry..i din get ue a present..ya...for me..im still....in the middle...how can i change reality .. ?

okay then..

i love you father lord..~

just wanna say that..

~takecares~

~d0r0~

2007-07-12T06:43:00.000-07:00

aren't i pathetic.. now ... the feeling ... makes me think that im in between both of them .. (cliques as well as friends) .. which i am .. i clarify things with one of them .. and the other too..but i cant do anything.. i wonder..what will happen next.. will this be forever ? and must i be like that forever.. to be always in between .. i found out..im always in the middle...just the middle...i duno where to go... im confused... im stuck....
i shall end with..
im tired..
all years faded...
~d0r0~
~thought things were okay .. but i thought too fast~

2007-07-11T08:25:00.000-07:00

OMG...I know the truth ... how can it be.....WHY ?!.........why must it be like that.....?why are u like that?.........i cant believe.....the fact ...im ......all....abandoned................
~d0r0~~2ndpost~

2007-07-11T07:51:00.000-07:00

everything hurts me now..i duno why .. just like i say .. package...*counting* one package..two package...three.....how many more? guess there will be alot more...and how long will it last..and how long must i take ?... im really sorry to the friends around me... i started everything...im sorry .....
got cut by a knife while washing it in HE..
all i can say now is... who am i ?...though dreams came true..but .. wadd have i done?...to make the world around me stop regonising each other...
who ... will ever understand me now?

...except god...

~d0r0~

forgive me..

im just a PATHETICgurl---again..

at a corner....

the memories......

2007-07-10T05:49:00.000-07:00

well . normal day today ..LOL..tok to more pple lerr .. kinda happy bout that..guessed correct =x..nidd time .. and..the recess went well too .. saw the 2j0y fav bunch of gurls..then after school also met them for lunch .. ate long john silver..-.-..wow..bad things and good things .. come in one whole package each ..so funny sia-.-...kay..then..after long john silver..me..jie(munyee),laopa(sirui) and mummy(freesia) went to pcc to see the boys play badminton..as brendan change his string i tink?and the grip too..very nice haha.. but kinda costly =x..ya.the minqi(kor)and josephine(2ndMummyxD) went off themselves..din folo us as tink they dun wan come LOL..so josephine pei minqi go buy things..then when reach the pcc..very fine one..suddenly things happen..i din get used to it..i felt scared..and i felt like puking..but freesia left earlier ..ya..things happen as i say..afterwards ..me,munyee,sirui still there larr..then things happen (again=.=) then i felt like puking and all those stuff..so i told them .. i nidda go first..i cant take it..so in the end they came along..then me and munyee followed sirui pay bills..(singtel one) then went home..munyee in the end decided to walk home..then met jane they all ?..felicia was there..then so she going home i tink .. she takes 72 .. and me and sirui stay near by and can take that bus..so .. yupp .. we took together..i introduced them to each other..duh .. LOL..then..me and sirui got down bus..then say byebye to her(felicia) ..in and out of the bus LOL.just added her in maple haha..she look so cute lorr =x..ohhya..just remembered..........ivan ..u tink is funny issit...disturb me until liddat..... tease somemore larr.....hpmfh!..jiaqin.U ALSOHORR.. GO HIT MY TABLE WHEN I RESTING..I DUN WAN SEE ivan face..say i scared him .. weirdo-.-....waddeva larr... i go liao :)..LOL
~mummy..must jiayou~..make ur decision well..~and takecares..dun sad lerr..~we'll always be behind u derr:)..~
jiayous ~!
~d0r0~

2007-07-09T01:15:00.000-07:00

got hist test T.T..DIE .. XD..scared i fail T.T..pray to god b4 test silently XD.in the morning..i went to 2j0y first to return minqi..the k01..which i borrowed long time ago..and forgotten to return..and last week i cant find her.so i gave her 2day..left the classroom sadly and happily?LOL..i tink..went to 2sin..put bag..took out thermometer incase got check..then came down pull flag..then helped to dismiss the sec 2..saw freesia..and she said..HEY DORO!my recess same as 2j0y lehh 2day..then i say oh..then she say u go check if ur's the same then come along too okay? then im like oki..then suddenly i remembered..that mine was also the same..i was so happy larr!at last can go join them for recess :D!..later..went recess..then remember nidda study for hist test..but in the end onli study a little but did manage to do finish the test at least XD..then..saw the munyee they all:D..shumei helped me find them too .. thankyou shumei haha..then asked freesia if i can take some poka XD(i tink this spelling..the..one stick of biscuit..got choco and strawberry flavour one:D)then..when i came..they were pretty surprised..but okay with it..suddenly.like im invisible..then i just tok to my 2sin frens though im sitting at their table..then .. i say .. erm..see u guys so happy .. erm i go off first lorr..dun disturb u guys bahh..then minqi was beside me..then she say byebye :) with a smile..i felt that..she was chasing me away..the byebye was an offensive one..straight away it hurted my heart..first u guys din really welcome me..then .. wanting to chase me away..wow..that feeling..i wasted for being happy for u guys..i was like..i said..hey !wa...then...i walked beside chinghui i tink yupp..and started to discuss the hist with a heavy heart..though the rest looked at me..(josephine,freesia..one of them..i tink the rest didn't) i din bothered...i was..like..thx freesia for telling me to come ..but i guess..i was not invited..im sorry to bother u guys..that was wadd i was tinking in my heart..then i went back class..toked to shumei..she was like..kinda angry a little..but..she seemed more irritated then i am LOL..she's real funnY haha..she kinda cheer me up in a way..guess i was wrong bout them..thought..they miss me or waddeva..guess...they dun..especially minqi..but..sadly..suyu was not there..she went to hongkong..i wonder if she's there..will she bother?after the recess timing..i went back class..mood changed..became more..restless again..2morrow same recess as them again..wonder..wadd will happen..came back home early today.. and i thank brenda for the company haha..she followed me back .. we took the same bus..and i bought food b4 we went back..she helped me alot anyway . thankyou haha..oh ya..during recess i also saw siti..geraldine..emma..andrew and i tink 3 or 2 more guys..yupp..ahya..really .. very sad.. even yesterday .. suyu and me toked..bout the class..she shared to me alot of things bout 2j0y and i shared with her alot of things bout 2sin..haha .. worried for her studies..
i'll end here..
-HURTED-

~d0r0~ the word goodbye is hurting...especially this one

2007-07-08T06:33:00.000-07:00

#*SATURDAY*#
so far..this is all i could remember XD..erm .. yea.. . woke up pretty late at around 11 plus?i tink as last nite slept pretty late XD..then .. went out at 12plus to do maths with group(onli shumei,anthea and brenda appear) kailee was selling tickets and forgotten to bring the papers too..yupp .. was kinda fun haha..we took photos of the pens..shumei go take loads of pic LOL..but it's nice haha
erm ya..then went home ..prepared for church..went with dad..bro and me..then later..fetch my mom from outside near by my house mac..and went to buy dinner at puggol nasi lemak ..its really nice XD..but we da bao home larr..my mom borrowed two disc ..as in rent larr..and we went home to watch as a whole family .. so happy haha..glad that parents had time:)..yupp . thankyou daddy and mummy XD.
okay that's for sat ;p
#*SUNDAY*#
morning woke up..at verii late too haha..im a pig .. a lazy one XD..ate breakfast with mom(she just came back from church)..and bro ate earlier..but she da bao somethings home to eat..as she cooked porridge..yummy=x..then..waited for tuition teacher(uncle Henry)to come teach me and bro..learned three new chap..it suddenly rained heavily..and the broadcaster said it will be raining more nowadays..and duno i tink scientist or duno who predict that we will be hit by typoon?or duno wadd thingy which is like a strong wind that absorbs things to the sky ..pretty creepy T.T..dun wish to kena..it might happen during nov-dec?.uncle henry is a verii knowledgable man XD..ask him questions he mostly can ans ..pro lorr ;p..yupp then ..lend him an umbrella..he went off..yupp..then mom cooked dinner...i slept a little downstairs..then my mom notice..somemore i watch tv till i sleep XD..tsktsk..then she brought me upstairs to her room(parent's room)my bro is already there..got air-con sia..so comfortable..LOL..but sadly ..suddenly cannot sleep lerr x).then later we went downstairs(mom,bro and me) to eat dinner..eat lerr...awhile later she left..as she went to help my dad to work ..coming home late..duno when she coming home..now haven..dad also haven .. pray that they will come home safely ..when they go off..very worried haix..now me and my bro playing comp ..obviously now i blogging haha..then .. talked to suyu and sirui on msn..suyu comforted me..i comforted her haha..sirui asked me if i can go out..at last they jio me LOL=x..ps XD..erm ..ya..because it's munyee's birthday soon..so yupp an outing..wa..somemore going watch harrypotter XD!i want ! but must see parents allow first haha..see bahh .. somemore i duno if on that day got golf(friday) .. so all the best to me XD!
quite long didn't go out with them lerr to me larr haha
okay then . long post XD!
tired now XD
~d0r0~
~takecares~:)..
if still cant read my post=.=..let me noe LOL..this should be okay bahh haha.
~g0dbless~

2007-07-06T07:19:00.000-07:00

quite a bad day today haha. had a really bad stomach cramp in school . lucky no golf . went straight home..and .. had maths test..but doubt i will get full marks like wadd the ms ang wans . as i tink i did wrongly for second question? XD . erm . yea . feeling better now though .. and thx for the pple who cared..im really grateful haha.. without ue guys .. guess i would faint half way ! ..LOL..im really super weak .. my bag was like so heavy .. good thing that they have St.John pple there ..LOL..XDjkjk erm .. yea..talked to more classmate .. and had a better relationship with them .. like erm .. ching hui ? .. clara..claudia..yea .. i tink? and vanessa..though some were in home econs .. ahya .. they're good haha . though i seldom tok to them . knew chinghui in pri school . so can communicate with her pretty well .. ya.. now the boys.. but .. i tink im getting used? .. praise the lord? and the .. guy samuel?..he's so funny . he got locked up in the classroom haha .. and the monitress(Caslin) din notice though his size . it was pretty funny though .. and pretty ... sad ? haha . i din really laugh . just find it .. poor thing? XD .. but in the end .. me and ruijun and anthea went to call her..erm .. ya .. then she opened again..some of the classmates went to take photo .. haha . and i tink he cried?LOL..i duno larr..but .. yea .. today ..was better..
sad thing was..i guess i kinda lost them .. (2j0y buddies) .. they din jio me out...they just ... asked me .. bout work ... bout.. joshua no. .... and ... i was pretty moody for my cramp .. i was disappointed..guess...joshure gonna play with brendan more huh .. and i hate it when he hits my head in the middle of the canteen .. so did louis .. but .. louis is in the science lab =.=..ahya .. dun care larr XD..i just.. disappointed bahh .. okay then
that's all XD
~takecares~
thx to pple who cared..~:)
~d0r0~

2007-07-05T06:56:00.001-07:00

feeling lonely as usual...though i still stick with the bunch..i still feel... weird... i ... ahh .. i just duno .... and ... i din mean to provoke pple after school ... no one talked to me... i felt .. more lonely... everybody seem to disappear..but lucky ...jingyi did tok to me a little..and ... the charity pple.. i really thankyou ya?...sadly..the sincerity classmate...din really talk to me...even though pple .. like mr shahrom one of them asked me to tok to melvin..but...frens...frens..they stick with their frens..and bunch .. if it's onli one to one..or onli a few(1-4?)...of course..they will tok to me..but ....i just noe..that time...the min .... i was very lonely.... i cant get along...wadd am i gonna do ?...environmental problem... first to solve..but i cant...HOW?!..how....i went into the class..i thought ..wow..it's a nice class...i thought..im able to socialise well...but the have many weird things going on..now i tink ... that im too sociable ... and not good enuff for them?..gotta work by myself...shumei and cliques always go home after school .. but i dun get use..now .. i gotta change?...haix...if im in charity ?..how will it be? if im in other class..how would it be?...or back to joy...guess im tinking too much .. which pple say..then got another trouble..but i dun tink i should share..why must troubles come in ONE WHOLE PACKAGE !!i find that..encouragement..help a little but not that much.. as NTH CHANGE !! ARRH...i feel so...alone...gotta stand up alone again..even pple are fading..pple dun wanna tok to me...i cant do anything...gotta study hard..i promise it to my parents..i promise ..!..i also thank ivan.. as he's the onli most sociable guy in that class..kinda helping me though he keep teasing me ..but i dun really mind..but i thank pple who have been behind me..but ... though things didn't change..i still thankyou..im tired alright...haix..im s0rry for disappointing..some pple..im sorry if i provoke anybody in class..pls forgive me..i really duno wadd to do..im sorry kailee for provoking u just now by making u .. i din noe u were busy...im really sorry...i just .. dun wanna .. be...lonely............. kinda sick now..cya .. takecares~d0r0~

2007-07-04T05:30:00.000-07:00

feel like im getting sick..anyway...already got headache when i was in golf..suddenly feel like puking..haix... dorothy..pple are still supporting u ... and u realise it..so u gotta...jiayou...ya?...guess..this will be my second post for the day.

2007-07-04T03:35:00.000-07:00

haix .. was .. kinda remembered that..maybe .. im in express..is only temporary .. as i nidda prove to the teachers/principles/ whoever..that i can cope in express..so must get ..around 75% and above i tink...and now...yet ..that class..i realise the..boys are not so sociable..and i cant...get help easily .. and is always in one bunch .. the boys are more to mavis that bunch ..but im more to shumei bahh?... i dun get used to it ...!...2j0y is when there's new pple..usually boys more sociable than gurls then later .. gurls come in .. and influence them better... im so ... scared..i cant hit the target...and now... i feel that im departing from the gurls that i am verii close at 2j0y.. tink .. mostly except..suyu ..and munyee?..the rest.. i seem to be departing..and wadd if i drop back to NA!!...wadd if i drop back..and..my relationship with them..will..be so much worsen ... im so worried !! ARRHHH...im so tired..im so ... arrrh...Y MUST I CRY EVERYDAY...and make myself worry .. i may be happy on the outside..but my heart...It...aches....though i talk to, i tink so far 2boys from 2sincerity on msn..onli one dares to tok to me in reallife ...how am i gonna socialise..?...how...maybe i nidda wait..i really wish things will turn around..but i doubt?...how am i gonna cope..just with onli ... a bunch?....how long..will this last...now..i nidda study hard...prepare for twinnie.....do express hw..which i tink is everyday .. and...i also wanna help in 2j0y racial harmony day...but i doubt i could..onli with the gifts as my mom can help ... HOW..pathetic can i be...?...being teased...rumours for fun...and hanging on... i dun mind these three..but...they are onli done by so little pple i noe... in that class..i feel....lonely... i really miss them..it's been one and a half year..i've been in 2j0y...its pain..!!!ARRH...
i forgot to thank mr lee here..for the wonderful gift too..the book is really meaningful..haha..though u almost make me cry too haha..?..
okay ... im tired..
just came back from school..
spilled my waterbottle water inside into my back..thx to steve but nvm..my things are drying..
~g0d..bless..then~
~g0d..guess this is wadd i meant to have~..
~no one~
~d0r0~
u may seem to be there..but u got good frens..right?..mine..gone?.......i cant express it out..
cya then~
6.56pm

2007-07-03T03:02:00.000-07:00

XD, since shumeimei say i pink gurl and i tink so too though i dun really know it XD..i shall make my .. colour of words near pink :) . or purple XD..
haha .. yea.. back :) . so long no blog liao :) . today .. 3/o7/o7! when to my new class.....2 SINCERITY:D..they are kinda funny bunch though..and i dun really get used to it? haha . but .. pretty fun yupp :) . haha..wa..when i go there...i keep missing 2j0y..wanna cry haha...then...pe right?...i purposely go out..at the side of the hall .. as we playing floorball there...and see 2j0y..as they were same time pe..and playing baseball .. i saw them..i cried a little..and .. wiped..and .. shouted HEY !! haha .. im like..i so missing u guys....even freesia..one of the transfered student from NA from 2j0y too larr..also miss them..also wanna cry.. haha...haix..somemore..i always go around there...their class..and din expect ..my most unexpected guy to say good luck .. cmon man !! u MAKING ME MORE SAD TT... haix..gotta get used to it ya?...though i also dun get used to pple staring at me LOL..2J0Y..I LOVE YA .....haha?.....ARRRH...*crying*..but at least i made new frens at 2sincerity..like .. mavis..and her bunch?...and...shumei and clicks :) .. and ... some boys...who are pretty funny? .. haha..just keep telling myself..dorothy ..it's time to let go...haha..and i really better do ...wish pple from 2SINCERITY can help me :D ya? LOL haha..somemore..for now i index no. 41=.=...wow...so sad sia haha .. i in my 2j0y class..is the last gurl but index is 16..now i got a feeling how josephine from NT last year then this year come our class..JOSEPHINE..(SECONDmama:) ) i must learn from u :D! JIAYOU XD..
cya then
tired ? haha
~godbless~
~d0r0~
~6.13pm~

2007-06-28T06:15:00.001-07:00

haha hey ! backs !yesterday was HIidol :). it went well though i won top 9 :) .but the experience was great..but ... the ..bad thing is that.. i got to accept many bad;;harsh;;comments..from judges .. then the pple around me ... im sorry to disappoint my supporters though .. and i thank you .. but .. if u imagine..if u were me ... and .. i chose the wrong ..song.. and got a harsh one by the judges .. but yet when i go around .. pple still keep telling me ... haix .. u really choose wrong song lerr larr.. if u nvr .. u will be better one.. and most without any good things behind .. eg.. but u have a great outfit..or a voice.. most just keep ... saying you .. how do u feel? ..to me .. now .. i feel so pressured...so negative..just keep thinking .. and thinking .. hey pple .. im hurting..feel it .. can u ? ...im in the wrong..i din noe that i chose the wrong song..even though mr maran came for the rehearsal..he was also the judge..and he did not even tell me that song was a wrong one..instead on the day itself .. when lee wei song said..then he too said..cmon..i mean ... im really .. wow.. if i can say this .. i learned..but ... am accepting all the negative facts..and now .. going express soon ... and leaving my frens..tell me now .. how pressured can i be.. but i still gotta face everything...even the clothes i wear but wrong..and i din choose it .. everything i did on that day .. seemed wrong..but it's also my fault huh...haix .. for not being so sensitive..nth to say u noe..since that day .. cried ... and cried..my parents came..but left early .. and i was so happy that they came !..they were always .. always busy !..i din really get a chance to see them always..unless verii late at night..but they came! and recorded most of our performance..i was so happy .. so happy .. for that ... especially .. they brought my hopes up .. i really love them .. i really thank them too ...
well .. i have expressed my feelings here already i tink .. well..
wish i will feel better soon ..
pple .. be a star..and accept the consequences:) ..ya?
do not let urself down..:)
it may be tough like me .. or even worse .. or easier..
but there is always negative things comin in .. so all the best :)
~FOREVERmyHEARTisINsinging~
~d0r0~

2007-06-25T07:54:00.000-07:00

haha . well .. guess the time has come .. to depart from 2joy soon ..and i guess the 'family' got used to it anyway .. first day of school .. letting me sit behind at the back .. though im short.. and.. cant join in what they were talking though .. they feel happy .. but i felt sad ya ? haha. that makes me kinda sick .. haha..moody..they tink im sick . yea . kinda.. but imagine.. a person .. bout to leave the class .. with two others.. are like far at the back sits .. no frens kinda treasure us.. that was the feeling i hated .. and .. many close frens had drift away .. to others.. like .. sirui .. suyu .. well .. they should get used to it .. that was wadd i thought .. to be positive .. the way they .. treat us in class .. it was as though .. either .. just leave ..we will remember u .. that's all .. or .. the feeling is like.. as if we are still gonna stay here.after school .. though we went out .. i tink he relationship got better in a way . as there was time to chat .. especially a closeup .. but i still felt .. a missing puzzle somewhere in me when i was together with them .. i keep feeling that sirui changed..i duno .. many pple changed too ..holidays .. brought us apart? and now .. we are still gonna depart..man .. this is real pathetic ... guess ... it was meant to be..
i really cant stand it .. but almost cried..when i saw .. them .. first day of school .. already booked those places .. to be together..josephine beside suyu..minqi beside sirui..munyee was just infront of them.. they chatted and chatted..discussed ans together .. so united .. felt so odd .. and .. me ..... freesia...and erin .. was left just behind them..they din really bother till we bother... imagine that feeling..hurting huh? ... and i just felt like crying out my lungs...just feel like crying and crying... to help myself..those memories..really gotta fade...anyway .. i just changed my hairstyle .. it's pretty weird? haha . i tink ? ..
-ANOTHER SUBJECT- ..
i thought .. i liked someone all these while .. but when i woke up .. i found out.. there was actually another guy that i really liked..for .. around 4 years already..he was still in my heart... i was so surprised...but ... well ... at least he's still there .. i thank him haha.. and of course .. erin too .. she had been by my side since i wasn't so close to the others already.. as both of us are going express..so ..ya .. haix
..okay then
scarly go further cry more ..
haha
takkaire then
god bless
~d0r0~

2007-06-22T03:35:00.000-07:00

GAHH!
so damn bored today XD'
just know i went to jiaxuan house..
and in the morning .. actually suppose to go work .. for my mom?parents? haha .. with .. kelvin..daniel..weijian and zack .. but i didn't go .. guess i thought they dun welcome me..and .. someone reminded me of the past so i din go .. and tomorrow still got chance.. but if that guy is still going .. i will not go ..but anyway i also have hi idol 2morrow..so no worries XD..just that the clothes were changed i guess? haha .. okay then .. cya for now XD .
~godbless~:D
XD

LOVEuGUYS..DUNgoT.T

2007-06-20T06:50:00.000-07:00

kinda forgot everything today haha.but had fun . :)
me and erin met up to study . but in the end . we met minqi..sirui..munyee..at macs :) . so decided to join them . but in the end..most of the time we kinda played.. haha..memories :)..so missing it T.T..erin and me did study alittle :)..most probably going express soon..yea..so .. really gonna miss 1joy-2joy precious memories..gonna cry man haha..haix..really treasuring moments...omg..the more i say .. the more im gonna melt ..=.=...haix.. all i know .. the kelvin..fattybo..erm..i should not continue..scarly he see he scold me..and im not suppose to bother him anymore ..since he say..erm..ya..nth .. erm .. yea .. he's coming tomorrow again..haix..i cant sleep again?> i DOUBT T.T..im so pathetic haha.. haix .. okay then .gotta sleep now :)
niteys then
:) .
godbless :D
~d0r0~
lovingMEMORIES T.T
~!9.55pm!~

wo00000!!:)

2007-06-16T06:57:00.000-07:00

HEY haha . im back :D! hmm .. yesterday .. was my BRO'S BIRTHDAY :) YUPYUP :D . it was damn fun haha . kelvin,jiaxuan,dervin,joshure,vanessa and gaoxu came :) . we had loads of fun:) . we played..blindmice..crocodile(special onexD)..and..true or dare..and LAST OF ALL..CANNOT BE MISSED...WATER BOMB HAHAHA !! :D . though there is only three gurls..plus me.. and..5 boys.. the boys do most of the job :) tsktsk .. for the water bomb especially .. so of course they had most of the authority haha . kinda sabo the gurls though but was fun :D.if im not wrong..daniel(the birthdayboy) was the wettest hahaha .
and all i really know the most that day was..KELVIN WAS SCARED OF ME LOADS :D ! HAHAHA YEA ! IM AINT TINY ! LOL=.=...
so sarcastic sia me =x..
then..hmm...ya..the funniest thing my bro shared with me was..
kelvin was the first to arrive..but...was also the last to go home hahaha . it was like .. wow .. so nice lorr...the way things happen :D . he went home last as he waited for his father to come...but we(bro,me,kelvin) chatted alot in my bedroom..loads of joke he brought up.but sadly he cant stay overnite..and duh,, he went off too larr.. at around..10 or 11 plus pm? kinda late haha.
yupp okay .. now back to today! :) .bro and myself went to cellgroup at marslin or marsling? LOL..it was good:) yupp..almost all the cellgroup members shared testimonies today haha..pretty inspiring too :).then..after cell group we went home..reached home around 5?or 4 going to 5 pm?..then me and bro..at nite went to a early happy father's day dinner with..me..bro..mom..dad..grandpa..grandma..(both grand's from mom side)..i din prepare..so as soon as i went in the car..same thing..my dad say me..bro also .. then i say my bro..as he din tell me the time .. so i din noe when to prepare..and i asked him to bathe first..he bathe pretty late till i cant get to bathe so i came home then bathe in the end larr..then in the car..i dun care who was in it..i shouted..SORRY LARR!..liddat..but i was really frustrated..everytime me..it's father's day..u still say me..ur day man..i was tinking in my mind for my dad..ur day lehh daddy..still say me..i go in can go liao marr..then i cried larr..then pretty furious..then i cooled down..but infact i also in wrong bahh? i tink haha . most probably too.. then.. i cooled down as i was eating.. and apologise to my grandpa for not greeting him just now in chinese then my bro so funny..say..wa..when did ur chinese improve so fast..i gave him the lame face =.= haha . but b4 i told my grandpa.i ask my dad how to say in chinese greet .. then after i told my grandpa i said to my dad u too haha but i tink he din catch it ..LOL..hmm .. my grandpa just said ..its okay haha .. then i phew :D . haha
but ate lerr..had quite a great time..then went home lerr..
ohh ya .. last thing haha .. when we finish cellgroup..went down the lift..of the blk yupp .. then amelia(one of the cellgroup member) took out her hp pouch,,for her being a spongebob fanantic..she took out that time got ..like alot of hp accessories of spongebob then guess wadd she did..she did this..she said hi to every spongebob she saw..even stickers that were pasted on her hp..and..even the wallpaper hahaha . i was like din laugh that loud but in my mind i was laughing like mad .. even the rest were laughin .. she was like so cute larr hahahaha . so funny sia .. keep remembering..wa..still got another joke..but cant really say larr haha . i scared he(kelvin) dun allow xD damn funny also hahaha.
haha . getting late lerr . i going sleep soon :)
okay then . that's all :D
gtg ;D .
god bless .
takecares~
~d-0-r-0~<33:)thinking...haix..-.-..

2007-06-13T06:33:00.000-07:00

hmm? pretty busy so din have time 2 update but i still remember wadd 2 write :D hahaha . hmmm ... the day ... before yesterday...before another yesterday..and another yesterday..was..saturday right? haha . and it was vanessa younger bro's birthday haha . had fun . we went there after cellgroup :) .. wa . something tounched my heart man ! haha . timothy likes one gurl .. and the gurl likes him too .. my juniors .. i regonise haha . but sadly when i reached there .. the gurl left already haha . but he haven opened the present she gave him..wa .. she came gave him i tink home-made cookies wa...*envys* hahaha . was told bout this by kelvin..then..the present was like wa...she took like duno how long..to pack it up larr can..actually it's a small box..then she wrapped it with newspaper till so big sia !! i was like wow .. he took .. around 15-20mins 2 open tadd present..!!wow...hmm .. okay .. then .. the day before yesterday .. went to Lee Wei Song's school ! :) . IT'S LIKE SO DAMN COOL AND NICE AND WORTH IT MAN ! pple say wadd one day wont learn much .. WRONG MAN hahah . the top ten finalist went 2 school first larr . then we took some photos..2 make a video i tink .. then we went there..(leeweisongSchool)from..1pm-6pm..wa..then they(topten)keep teasing me haha . like i shorty..smallsmall one..like small gurlgurl =.=..but i enjoy it i duno y ? haha . unique wadd xD ! hmm .. then...had a fight yesterday with my dad haha . but ..nth much..something changed is that ..no one was by my side haha..not like last time..when he was there haha..still remembered..haix..nvm :) .. gotta face it ..the fight strted because i like shout at my mom haha . as i went for hair treatment .. then the back of my head cant see ..ask her spray ...then she like duno how spray.. haha . then she know my mood .. then just keep like talk nicely haha .so i cooled down..then she laughed .. then ok liao .. but my dad heard wadd..he came in ... then tok tok .. then suddenly kick me..say wadd..ur parents dun shout okay !..i shouted'' because i was worried my mom duno how spray then i cared bout myself like hell because of my scalp..but ..he shout at me can liao wadd..he go kick me..n shout..then i cried .. i bear a little while .. and went out of the room and went into my room..and the same thing..hide myself at a corner(of bed) and cried..and in the end..i slept ..then..today..hmm..quite fun haha . we went to .. erm playground haha . then .. we test that playground for blindmice for my bro's birthday which is on this coming friday(15June)..with..me..daniel..kelvin..suyu :) haha . verii fun :D . then suyu verii cute lorr when she the blindmice hahahaha.. then kelvin keep disturbing the blindmice..she's the worst..Lols..and he kept making me angry ..=.=.. but had fun larr :) .. wa..tired lerr haha
cool man .. i summarise woo:D!
Lol..niteys then ..cya
~d0r0~
*+*+REGRETFULofWORDS+*+*

add on xD

2007-06-07T08:05:00.001-07:00

i mean the Kelvin from 3Joy not 2joy ..LOL..my class sia 2joy xD

their c0mpany(:

2007-06-07T07:28:00.000-07:00

RAHHS ! im back xD
after a wonderful day at my (Daniel)brother's "jie"(Vanessa) and "mei"(JiaXuan) house who are near by.
Fun .. haha .. enjoyable .. and met 2 frens .. who are boys =.=...
one is called Timothy which is Vanessa younger brother(primary6) and their classmates Kelvin tink from 2joy..my bro said so ..LOL..
we went 2 JiaXuan house first .. then went to Vanessa..went to the hougang green mac as it was near by..me and JiaXuan bought the same things:D . we bought..(presenting)TADA !! CHICKEN MCNUGGETS STUDENT MEAL:D..!LOL=.=... my bro bought two mchickens burgers:).i use ez-link .. he use $$ but now he POK liao :) i already long time ago POK liao :D . xD . then daniel regretted as he say he want buy three because he want one burger eat in "mei" house..one eat in "jie" house.. and the last one eat at home.....LOL!=.=..so lame ..xD.. then .. we soon went 2 Vanessa house though she followed us to JiaXuan house as we nidda take our stuff(homework..etc..) to her house ..LOL..complicated to write=.=...xD..we played audition for a while and went downstairs to play playground to play BLINDMICE:)LOL..i do my maths hw one sheet first .. so they played first..then later i joined in..and so suay .. i come in .. i kena caught..T.T..and be catcher haha..
The funny and heng thing is .. when i close my eyes and walk..u know that playground got alot of .. bars around?so .. im like..u know..so damn short=.=..i can just walk under it :D .(just rightxD) SEE .. ADVANTAGE SIA :D !! so goodie:D:D .. then the other funny thing is that the rest are taller so horr.. they walk ..then kena hahaha . kelvin once kena his eyes..then daniel kena he forhead 2 times..tink 2day is second time haha
in the end . we went back the vanessa house and stayed there till round ... 630pm and went off haha . tired and having tuition at 7pm .. then lucky vanessa spotted my bro's wallet when we are already at the ground floor in the lift .. so obviously .. we went up and get it hahaha.thx vanessa ..xD.then .. we went back home..of course ..jiaxuan;;kelvin;; me and my bro went separate ways :) . as soon as we reached home.. around .. 715?i tink .. tuition teacher came..my bro had dinner first and i went 4 the tuition .. then later his turn..teacher suddenly wanted to look at our testpapers haha..then im okay lar..but my bro.. in bad shape =x..teacher keep askin him..wakeup..buckup..he just keep the sloppy face as a reply..LOL..
ahya ..i tink i shall stop here..getting late..nth much funny already:D . so ..
haha
cya:D
~d0r0~
11.03pm
~WHOOSH~~~xD

wonderful day ahead :)

2007-06-06T02:55:00.000-07:00

well . am back :) after a beautiful day of playing badminton with friends hahas. pretty fun 2day . with .. brendan..kenn..minqi..freesia..joshure..and my brother daniel :) hahas .sadly minqi is going 2 hongkong around the morning 2morrow..?i think .. and .. im not sure when munyee is coming back from hongkong 2 .. hahas.. if they went 2gether..they will be in the same place and the same hotel ! if im not wrong haha . and .. sirui .. (laopa).. she's coming back from malaysia 2nite ? yupp ahahas.
but gotta wake up =.=....haven even start my homework..ZzZzz...im SO LAZY XD!!are u ? LOL =x . okay then . nth much 2 say 2day :) . just wish 4 a wonderful day ahead !:D
okay then .
gotta go :) . buaiis !

2007-06-04T00:14:00.000-07:00

heyhey!
HMM...good news ! hahas . anyone here know Liu Geng Hong? hahahas
. he visited our church on 2 June 07 which mean .. the day before yesterday and performed .. the best thing is .. HE PROPOSED TO HIS GIRLFRIEND IN OUR CHURCH ! omg LOL . i was not there .. sadly . hahas . one of my cell group member(Ferlinda) told me .. i was shock ! hahas . at first i did not really know who is he .. but on 3June he came again .. of course the girlfriend was there too.. i mean .. future wife LOl ..and performed again :) . for that .. they are the second couple to propose in our church ..Lol . the first one is pastor Aries and Sandy tsktsk . but its a wonderful thing right? hahas . hmm .. wow... tink yesterday hahas . got blessed with many things by my parents . of course there is something behind it . but im aint gonna tell u :D LOL . got a portable DVD player .. and my bro got a mp3 but we share it xD .haix ..duno why .. just keep thinkin bout him...things keep reminding me bout him.. almost everything...no choice ..gotta get used 2 it..its been so long since we have split hahas ..if only someone out there is able 2 help me forget my past hahas.or maybe i need 2 help myself alone..LOl?..all i know is that .. i still love him.. but.. well .. its already 2 late.. im the one who decision..so i gotta face it.. he already love someone else..and when i was together with him..well ... he only like me..hahas.. pretty fast huh hahas..those days :')..those memories hahas.. guess the best times were in a place call ubi .. and the worst is the last day we went out together.hahas..i cant make time for him..din do anything..so why make him suffer..hahas..so..haix..hahas..will nvr forget those memories..21.10.o6--21.o3.o7..its pretty difficult to admit..but that was the first relationship i have in my life till now hahas..its already good enuff :) .. will nvr forget .. wonder if he will read this .. but its just something that i do to make me feel better :) ..
well ..maybe blog really rocks?LOl..
i shall sign off then ..
cya :)

2007-06-01T05:40:00.000-07:00

arlow(x . at last huh ? hahas . my ever first blog or should i say diary . thanks 2 pple around me xD . especially my cousin . jingrong . thx 4 helping me make this blog ! :D LOVE YA xD ! pretty plain still =.=.. nidd 2 deco .. more plain then my 'previous'one LOL? =x . okay then
god bless
signing off :)
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