Wednesday, September 12, 2007
back . after going express.. so many changes.... my font colour is kind of dull ... it's been really hard and tiring these days on how life have been going on for me ... i duno .. i feel that ... in express.... it's always me ... myself ... and i .. but in NA .. most of the time, we do hw together..we study together ...now ... feeling much lonely ... seem to be losing people around me ... it seem to be worse than before ... feeling much more pressurize .. im worried....if i get friends now again ... and get close to them ... after a while ... i'll lose them again ...i wonder wad i did wrong.. to gain all these friendship ..comforts does not seem to be working... i just want a warm .. long friendship.. a trustworthy one .. but i know people have their own limits.. if i did something wrong.. i dun mind u telling me..but if u were to tell me what i did wrong b4 u even know how i feel right now.. what's the point.. i seem to be hurted even more..then i might as well just treat it as normal friends and not bringing it to a closer friendship ..people also have their probs.. and their time..if u cant help me .. just tell me .. i can still ask around.. (this is kinda for somebody).. trying to adapt to my surrounding .. with people who are so smart around me .. gives me a little motivation to work harder .. but it's difficult though .. in the class.. i .. feel so .. i feel as if im the dumbest ..honestly .. but i gotta hang on .. that's all i noe .. feeling stress all the time..having no choice .. putting a strong front .. i just have no choice ..dorothy ... help urself .. help urself ..help urself .. dun depend on others that much ... issit true ?! ... im just simply tired..im always tired.. i dun wan to have a black face .. and let others see it .. it will make them have one too .. as they will worry for me .. i was told off once though .. now i realise .. i tried to stop .. i just wish it wont come back so often..okay then .. i shall do my work now ..i shall remember .. i still have god though ..i still have...god ..thankyou ruijun .. ~d0r0~Labels: thank you anne too ... and brenda i guess...
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dorothy out
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