me
wishlist
:: get good results/ good grades. a child can ever wish for. ::
# d0r0thy.
# 13 going 14.
# Am who i Am . (:
# DECEMBERbaby:D
:: do not wish my parents to go overseas so often . Duh . i miss them always . ::
:: having more true friends. never want to be lonely. ::
:: want to live life to the fullest. loves god. [{Chc}] child of god (: ::
Labels: some might understand..some might not..but that feeling..of trust..where am i going?..
Monday, August 6, 2007
things happen then no time yupp.. just now nowadays very tired O.O..
let see..today..hmm .. at last i passed up both my chinese compo with brenda help :D! i thankyou :D ! ..well .. din really like english lesson today though ... pretty sad huh .. suddenly you are left behind..just reminds me of the old clique who did the same thing..man my heart hurts.. but .. i duno why .. im more worried for brenda then myself..weird..she somehow..ya .. i really dun feel like leaving pple alone..but somehow..there aint a choice..i guess.. then had science test..wish i wont fail and do pretty well i tink if not pass liao can bahh..i tried to work hard..but my results are like..man .. express..is kinda hard..im really worried..though i have god..but im sorry father lord..for not attending service for the past two weeks..pls forgive me..went to mac .. really thank god for a fren like brenda who is able to accompany me for my chinese compo and help me..we kinda enjoyed ourself..and she is kinda cute..she just keep toking while i looked at her sometimes blur..understood and .. doing my work..cute sia..then she just .. tok and tok hahahaha .. and share all her stories .. so funny sia xD! then .. saw suyu..emma and sirui... went down the escalator..emma and suyu was like waving.. and sirui was just looking as i guess she was too slow to react or? but .. i thought they would come up again to say something..waited and waited...sad hur? they din came..wonder where they went? .. they din ask me out again..MAN IM SO ...out of both cliques now..IM FOREVER IN BETWEEN !! ARRRH ! ..i dun wan this....pls...dun say ur troubles is bigger as all troubles is big..u cant measure them..trust me...though i have more frens now.. so wadd?..realise something...i dun have true .. best .. real frens...somehow .. they just leave my heart..to others...why issit frens are always my prob?...it might have been all a dream to tink that i had..till i woke up ... day by day..realising...where are u ? ..where are all of u ?..can u tell me..why did u forget me?...can u tell me wadd i did?..or should i say ... i should be asking myself...so wadd if i act happy in there..does it mean...im happy..well..im trying to face my greatest my fear infact... running as far as possible from it...and .. who cares?...i dun wanna be alone..i understood pple who were lonely...but somehow..they are used to it... but im not..i thought../always believe? that i was nvr lonely ..pple told me im not.. im not.. yes im not.. i have god..but .. frens?....u nidd frens once in a while...especially that feeling ..of being left out...they nvr came back... to me..this how i tink...when i put myself into their shoes(who have their frens and leave others behind)..i've got my frens now..and they forgets you..as they got their fren..they somehow...leave u behind..i wonder..have u pple...in that kinda shoe ever thought of the pple in this shoe?..like the loners?...i also wanna say sorry to one person...that i cant always company u ..u have ur own frens..but how bout that person that u say that always stick with me..she dun have much frens..that's why .. i accompany her kinda more..and wad's more she's my class partner..but i will also stick with u..once in a while..u are the second gurl i stick with most of the time in class if im not wrong..pls dun tink anything..u are still my fren..and i will always try my best to not leave u behind..issit okay?...all i noe is that im simply tired....maybe is because i din find u guys..or ... waddeva?...i just noe .. i tried my best to keep my promise..but u didn't .. time by time..u guys played happily .. and forgot bout me..why..?it was as if u understood me..
now im hardly anybody..
no one close beside me like b4..
thought everything i had could last..for a longer time..
but i was wrong..
how hurt...can i be?..
can anyone tell me?..no one understands..
if i were to have u by my side again..
at least..i had u .. but
now u had someone else..
but im happy for u..
i thankyou..
~d0r0~
those times..
those hurtful times..
those happy times..
that pathetic gurl..at the corner..with her mum infront..
crying for help..who is there ?..no one..
dorothy out
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