Thursday, June 28, 2007

haha hey ! backs !yesterday was HIidol :). it went well though i won top 9 :) .but the experience was great..but ... the ..bad thing is that.. i got to accept many bad;;harsh;;comments..from judges .. then the pple around me ... im sorry to disappoint my supporters though .. and i thank you .. but .. if u imagine..if u were me ... and .. i chose the wrong ..song.. and got a harsh one by the judges .. but yet when i go around .. pple still keep telling me ... haix .. u really choose wrong song lerr larr.. if u nvr .. u will be better one.. and most without any good things behind .. eg.. but u have a great outfit..or a voice.. most just keep ... saying you .. how do u feel? ..to me .. now .. i feel so pressured...so negative..just keep thinking .. and thinking .. hey pple .. im hurting..feel it .. can u ? ...im in the wrong..i din noe that i chose the wrong song..even though mr maran came for the rehearsal..he was also the judge..and he did not even tell me that song was a wrong one..instead on the day itself .. when lee wei song said..then he too said..cmon..i mean ... im really .. wow.. if i can say this .. i learned..but ... am accepting all the negative facts..and now .. going express soon ... and leaving my frens..tell me now .. how pressured can i be.. but i still gotta face everything...even the clothes i wear but wrong..and i din choose it .. everything i did on that day .. seemed wrong..but it's also my fault huh...haix .. for not being so sensitive..nth to say u noe..since that day .. cried ... and cried..my parents came..but left early .. and i was so happy that they came !..they were always .. always busy !..i din really get a chance to see them always..unless verii late at night..but they came! and recorded most of our performance..i was so happy .. so happy .. for that ... especially .. they brought my hopes up .. i really love them .. i really thank them too ...
well .. i have expressed my feelings here already i tink .. well..
wish i will feel better soon ..
pple .. be a star..and accept the consequences:) ..ya?
do not let urself down..:)
it may be tough like me .. or even worse .. or easier..
but there is always negative things comin in .. so all the best :)
~FOREVERmyHEARTisINsinging~
~d0r0~

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dorothy out
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